draw conclusions on the wall

Its amazing how it never gets easier. Time, time, time. The further away the slower it moves, the deeper I fall, and the harder I cry. It never fails how badly I want you near, it never fails to hurt. Love is a strange emotion and connected with time, it can do the most amazing and difficult things. It is time to pick up my feet once again, strengthen my bones, and allow time to do what it will.

It was one of those days when I was driving home, and I couldn’t help but talk to myself. Only really I was talking to God. I am beginning to feel more confident, more complacent, more at ease, and in love with the simplicity or complication you can choose to make of your life. I am understanding choices and how I cannot lose faith. I look around and I can see my life staring back at me. Yes I am emotional, and have issues with criticism, and fear of failure, but then I look a little further and I see my friends, I see my family, I see my accomplishments, my education, my travels, my voice, and me. I see the beauty in it all, and realize that I will never have these moments again. I am so grateful for the people God has placed in my life. Even when I go away from Him, He still puts the most amazing people in my life, reminding me that He is always looking out for me, and always in my heart.

I need a new journal. At times, I just need a new mind. I can settle for a new mindset. I’ll take what I can get. I need a new journal.

I am feeling different, and I have absolutely no idea what to make of it.

You were like a stranger in my mind today.